Okay soo I have been meaning to write this for a while...which basically means that I have been suppressing my emotions, just like any other good male. Whatever, so what I wanted to talk about for a long time is my career here in college. I call it a career because it is the longest thing, besides life, that I have done consistently to date. Even now that I have a Bachelors I am still hanging around college students and going to parties; ya know not really moving on with my life I guess. That's just it though; what is it that is really waiting for me beyond the threshold of college? Is it this world of unknown opportunities or a world of bend over and take it for years, just to never fully reach a position of any real influential decision making? It took me 5 years to graduate because mainly I have the mind of an Engineer trapped inside of the personality of a Extrovert! I wish I had found my current group of friends when I transferred over here, but sadly my brain knows that is a logical impossibility because I would have been out of school and on to a career that I would suffer in for years if I graduated on time. I know that the punctuation's aren't correct (if they are let me know!) but i blame that on the math and a little bit on the rambling. Any who I am going to break this para/powergraph up because its boring.
Ahhh thats a bit better. Okay, so this thing college that we all pay a boat load for is sadly something that some of the worlds richest, not wealthy, people have never attended because it was a waste of time and ground in a theoretical nature. Its hard to write with that playing in the background lol. I don't really know what the point of this rambling was other than to express the fact that I am 7 years into this life stlye and I understand that the pressures of society want me to "grow up", but let me tell you something as you read. I am optimistic and crazy because I have grown up way more that a kid should have in his younger years and I have bottled up a lot of things that I am learning to let go slowly but surely. I am not an open book because I never have had that luxury. I am an African American male who takes people for who they are and not their Religion, Creed, Status, Sexual Orientation, Beliefs, Disbeliefes, or their Race (which is a falicy created to produce a validation in humanities difference and evolutionary traits). You are who you are and your gunna do what your going to do; so really all i can do is try my best to be your friend/associate for the time being and possibly longer.
P.S.- Old school love songs are my thing so I have this need/want to LOVE someone........
"When you have been through a lot in your life and have decided not to let it define you your actions may come of as being childish. Those of us who know where you are know better on the other hand. We know its just Calculated Optimism."- Alec
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