Tired

Okay so I fell like this statement needs to be made. I Alec Mathews am a Straight Male who like…Nay! Loves women. I also associate myself with anyone who has a personality that I like; it doesn’t matter to me if they are Gay, Lesbian, Bi-sexual, or Transgender. I love all of my friends and I wouldn’t ask them to change for the world. I am very secure in my sexuality and understand the liminal space that others shy away from. I have only this left to say... If you can't accept me for the person I am or the people around me who enrich this one life that I get then sadly I do not need you in it. I would like you to be, because the sharing of information is how we grow, but still a closed off mind is not welcome. Thank You

I had to make this statement earlier because I had some "concerns" about my sexuality as far as my family is concerned. I will not lie I have always felt slightly like an outcast in my own family and in my community as a whole, besides a few select people who didn't car about the way I acted or talked. I would also like to mention that it is very taxing living a double life, and I cannot fathom having to deal with what I am sure some of my friends have had to deal with for years. Its a sadly normal thing to watch people be ex-communicated from a family or religion because of their sexual orientation, but it is just a bit weird for me to realize that people are outcasts in their own families simply because of the level of their education and an open mind. I myself have always felt included in my own family but not really ever as one of their own but more as the one of our family who will give monetary credit to our family name and subsequently to the African american race at the same time. Now tell me; would you know what to do with your life with not only the pressure of your family on your back but and entire fucking race that has hundreds of thousands of people you have never even been a spec inside of their existence too? Either way I refuse to change who I am  because that is what people love about me and why my circle of friends is as large as it is, and why I can typically walk into any place across this country, mind you, and make friends anywhere I go. Also my main reason now for being me is so that hopefully I can be a role model to that kid growing up like me; feeling out of place all the time because of how a lot of his "skin color" acts, or because of how he is accepting of others and very neutral in most situations, or just purely needs to see someone and say hey, he did it and he had to overcome a lot to get there and now I feel like my life has purpose. If I can make one persons day directly or indirectly I can exit this world at the end of my stay as happy as I can be, because i would have done something that a lot of people seem to refuse to do today...

LEAVE OUR CHILDREN WITH A BETTER SITUATION THAN WHAT WE HAD TO DEAL WITH!!!!!!!

POGS...YouOnlyDieAwesome!! YODA!